[ He sighs, massaging his temple with his free hand. What can they do? If they're dead, then that's it. Done. There's nothing to do anything for. Nothing to work toward.
But this is Tim's fault, and it's his responsibility to make it as right as he can. ]
I guess first, we... we try and meet up as soon as we can. We start noting down landmarks and, uh, anything that stands out so we can get. Y;know, some kind of bearings? I think that's the plan.
[He nods to himself, already feeling steadier. He'll just focus himself on that goal and not think about any of that other stuff. That's doable. That's how he's been keeping himself comparatively sane for years.]
We don't know it's true. I mean, I don't remember dying. The thing was just - I was doing something and it came at me. You know how it works. And I don't know if it would - uh, if it would actually help anything for anyone...
[ Hurrrffff. ]
You know what, it's your call. You're usually pretty good at doing what's right by people.
[ Urgh. He doesn't regret what happened, exactly - the hooded guy wasn't anyone he knew or was close to or ever cared about hAHAHHAHAHAAAA CANON POINTS HAHAHAHAA - but...
He's still a killer now. Properly, not just indirectly. He's directly personally responsible for someone's death, and he still doesn't know how he's supposed to come to terms with it. ]
There was a fight. He was there when I found you and he ran and I chased him and... yeah. It's - it doesn't matter how it went down, he's dead.
[Well. That sure is a thing. There's no doubt in his mind that Tim did what he had to, and the hood guy was an asshole anyway, but. He still kind of feels gross thinking about it.]
Well, I... guess there's no point worrying about him unless he does show up.
Yeah, I'm just - conserving my medication. 'Cause, uh, I don't know how easy it's going to be to find more out here...
[ It's probably not wise since he'd been off the meds for so long before getting them back, but he took a couple yesterday so he shouldn't be in immediate danger of a relapse. Right?
Plus he'll need to share them with Jay when he finds him, so being as sparing as possible with them is important. ]
Maybe things will be okay as long as the thing doesn't find him. Or maybe they won't be okay, and the attacks will only get more and more frequent until he's like that all the time like the hoody guy.
[ Tim might be taking that the wrong way. Instead of interpreting the worry as concern, he's assuming Jay is worried about himself or anyone else who might cross Tim's path.
Whoops. ]
Yeah, it's like. There's more immediate stuff to worry about. Like how I'm supposed to find you when the only landmark here is snow.
If you're still sick tomorrow, then, I mean - don't push yourself. Just make sure you barricade the doors during the day, make sure you're not followed if you go out...
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So... what do we do now?
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I dunno.
[ He sighs, massaging his temple with his free hand. What can they do? If they're dead, then that's it. Done. There's nothing to do anything for. Nothing to work toward.
But this is Tim's fault, and it's his responsibility to make it as right as he can. ]
I guess first, we... we try and meet up as soon as we can. We start noting down landmarks and, uh, anything that stands out so we can get. Y;know, some kind of bearings? I think that's the plan.
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[He nods to himself, already feeling steadier. He'll just focus himself on that goal and not think about any of that other stuff. That's doable. That's how he's been keeping himself comparatively sane for years.]
Should we, like. Tell other people.
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[ Hurrrffff. ]
You know what, it's your call. You're usually pretty good at doing what's right by people.
When you actually think about it first, anyway.
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I, uh. Guess I'll think about it, then.
[Said with just the tiniest bit of sass. He's totally great at doing what's right okay!!]
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[ FLINGIN THAT SASS RIGHT BACK, FRIEND. Albeit exhaustedly. ]
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...Maybe it's better not to tell anyone for now. At least not until we know for sure either way. And then... I don't know, we can figure it out later.
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[ OH RIGHT YES. That could be relevant. ]
Uh, heads up that if we're right, then. The hood guy might show up. Because, you know, he's dead now.
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-Wait, he is? What happened?
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[ Urgh. He doesn't regret what happened, exactly - the hooded guy wasn't anyone he knew or was close to or ever cared about hAHAHHAHAHAAAA CANON POINTS HAHAHAHAA - but...
He's still a killer now. Properly, not just indirectly. He's directly personally responsible for someone's death, and he still doesn't know how he's supposed to come to terms with it. ]
There was a fight. He was there when I found you and he ran and I chased him and... yeah. It's - it doesn't matter how it went down, he's dead.
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[Well. That sure is a thing. There's no doubt in his mind that Tim did what he had to, and the hood guy was an asshole anyway, but. He still kind of feels gross thinking about it.]
Well, I... guess there's no point worrying about him unless he does show up.
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[ Punctuating this with a few coughs for emphasis. Maybe slightly tinny sounding ones because yay distortion. ]
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[Because that has been a lot of coughing during this call. Fussfuss.]
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[ It's probably not wise since he'd been off the meds for so long before getting them back, but he took a couple yesterday so he shouldn't be in immediate danger of a relapse. Right?
Plus he'll need to share them with Jay when he finds him, so being as sparing as possible with them is important. ]
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[He's not very comfortable with Tim's trust in his medication, but he's even less comfortable with the idea of Tim getting all weird and mask-weary.
Also Tim can't see it because they're on audio, but he just made a vague MASK gesture at his face. And then felt really dumb.]
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[ They're going to run out eventually. What then?
Maybe things will be okay as long as the thing doesn't find him. Or maybe they won't be okay, and the attacks will only get more and more frequent until he's like that all the time like the hoody guy.
But maybe. Maybe things will be okay. ]
Don't worry about that.
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[He might not have his own memories of what those attacks are like, but he still knows that they really suck. Tim shouldn't have to go through that.]
But I guess there's not much I can do about it anyway.
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Whoops. ]
Yeah, it's like. There's more immediate stuff to worry about. Like how I'm supposed to find you when the only landmark here is snow.
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Well, if people are gonna start mapping things out, that might help a little.
[Though that might involve having to communicate with people. Fuck that.]
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[ Because surely Jay's been travelling just as much as Tim has. SURELY. ]
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[IT HAS HOT WATER OKAY]
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If...
[ oh no he's not even sure he should say this ]
If someone is after you, you're not making yourself difficult to find. You know how important it is to keep on the run, you know?
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Yeah. I was kind of thinking about it anyway. Alex might not really be out there, but. I'd rather not find out.
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[ paranoia paranoia PARANOIA ]
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[paRANOIA PARANOIA PARANOIA]
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