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[maskintape]

It's Tim. I guess I'm busy, so... Leave a message.

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[maskintape]

lmao he can go fuck himself
uh sorry for the language
ftr
al was heading for the pharmacy
and was going to bring me my pills
and then he got killed
and hasn't come back
with that and the weather and the GODDAMN SEIZURES it's been p hard to make my way back to the tunnels. shockingly
does he know you're contacting me
if he does
just mention that every time I have a seizure Jay is hiding my tablet
he'll understand what I mean

and thanks
for trying, I mean? this isn't your problem so

[eclecticbassist]

oh nooooo!!! im sorry
on multiple accounts :(
um
i will tell him that

its no trouble at all!!!
i mean, this sucks
for everyone
but thats why it is my problem!!

[maskintape]

uh no
it isn't your problem at all? like
you're an unrelated third party trying to fix things or w/e
accept your props for wanting to intervene gdit
I don't thank people often and you're going to ruin it
it's v sad

[eclecticbassist]

hehe, okay
thank you and youre welcome
but i must insist on trying to solve everyones problems!! :P
oh
speaking of which

[ Attitude, mister!! ]

he really wants to meet in person
but he is in a hurry to get somewhere
i dont suppose you could meet us in the near future?
we will reach the post office in a couple of days, probably

[maskintape]

yeah it's not a good idea tbh
I'm not sure I'd be able to keep my temper so
plus I'm done chasing that asshole around esp when me and jay are halfway across town
I can deal w/being sick and withdrawal and w/e

will you be ok tho
you're ready to split if he throws a tantrum right

[eclecticbassist]

i will be fine!!
but you definitely will not :|
or ARE not
being able to deal with something =/= being okay with it
and that sounds really really awful so you are stuck with me until this gets sorted out!!!!

[maskintape]

seriously
everything is fine

[ LAUGH TRACK ]

I've got jay w/me 24/7 so I'm covered
@marblehornets ftr
always a good person to contact if you need a third opinion on the lunacy lmao

[eclecticbassist]

:|
unless jay can somehow prevent seizures i will continue to be skeptical :||||
speaking of this lunacy.....
brian is REALLY upset with you
apparently he thinks you said he was worthless? or that you do not want him around
and that something you want is in the past??

[ Is Brian like. A sprite or something???? Because he's beginning to sound like a sprite with two conflicting components. ]

[maskintape]

what the fuck
I never said that
and I'm p sure my actions since he got here show I don't think he's worthless?
all I've done is try to be a friend to that ungrateful thieving asshole

the thing about the past is complicated tho
he's not wrong about me wanting it back but I 100% accept that's never ever going to happen
so
yeah idk how he got things so skewed
this is some high school drama shit
raise your hand if you've ever felt personally victimised by tim wright etc etc

[eclecticbassist]

maybe reading it for yourself would help?
hes....
pretty hung up on this ark thing

also is that a reference or something?? i...
um
didnt exactly go to public school :S

[maskintape]

oh
oh for FUCK'S sake
yeah he's got it backwards
I was telling him I didn't want him just to live for the ~*~*ark*~*~ which is totally a real thing that really exists
that he should find things that make him happy independently of that
and I should have fucking known he wouldn't get it because hurr durr I am the husk that was once brian what am emotions???
I'm a moron
he's a moron
god fucking dammit

and uh yeah don't worry about it
neither did I ftr
I hear that shit's overrated anyway

Morning 87 (during convo with Jade!), @totheark; text

[0thingsonmymind]

stop LYING

[maskintape]

I'm NOT lying, asshole
what bit am I allegedly lying about
let's do this
jsyk thieves don't get to take the moral high ground

[0thingsonmymind]

you told me that theark didnot matter
that itwould not help
now you tell jade you did not
you LIE

the ark iswhat i need
you re fuse to under stand

iam done
itis not my fault you did not come to pharm acy before to get pills
it isnot my fault al couldnot
it will re stock
you can get later
iam not giving up what i NEED
for some one who will not SEE
who re fus es to LEARN

[maskintape]

no you're the one who won't FUCKING see
I want you to be happy you goddamn asshole
and chasing after something without knowing how or why it will make you happy is only going to work for so long
I told Jade that I don't think you're worthless
because I DON'T
if I didn't care I wouldn't bother with your bullshit when it's so hard
everything about this
EVERYTHING
is SO FUCKING HARD
and I get nothing back for my efforts right
literally nothing
except you stealing from me like always
and yet I still try? holy shit
take whatever's left in that head of yours
the one shoved right up your own ass
and ask yourself WHY THE HELL I WOULD KEEP TRYING TO HELP IN THESE CIRCUMSTANCES
IF I DON'T CARE
there's a goddamn puzzle from me to you for once
lmk when you're done decoding it
I don't give a damn about the meds I'll survive this
we both know I've been through worse
tl;dr eat my entire ass

[0thingsonmymind]

theark will make me hap py
iknow how why



you arenot help ing

STOP try ing

*He thinks he's already solved that puzzle, anyway.*

[maskintape]

I thought you didn't know what the ark was
aside from some nebulous concept of "everything being right and also there are answers"
which isn't how the world works
like
everybody has a different definition of happiness right
does that mean the ark is diff things to different people
like if I found the ark would all my buddies be alive and sane
including you ftr
you-you as well as original flavor brian
ugh

and jsyk I won't stop trying
it's not how I do things
or I'd be p dead rn lbr

[0thingsonmymind]

no

*No to what? Who knows. But that's all Tim's getting.*

[maskintape]

ok
good talk, buddy

@Mnemosyne; voice; day 91, night; here have some horribleness takeout delivered hot

[bookofnope]

[Tablet issues or not, Beckett has questions he needs answered. The knowledge that he might have just made a concious choice to let Brian go is haunting. And he has only one place to go with it.]

Tim. Have you heard anything from Brian tonight? I think he might have been hurt. Or killed. Not a great surprise, I'm sure. He's your friend, after all - that does tend to happen to them, doesn't it?

finally gets to this a million years later THANKS VICODINGATE

[maskintape]

[ WHOA. W H O A. Yeah okay Beckett is a prickly motherfucker, but whoa. ]

lmao ok first of all fuck you buddy
like things around here aren't shitty enough without your input
brian's been tattling I guess
looks like I'll have to push him out a window again if he's still kicking
maybe this time it'll stick
anyway nah
he's not talking to me atm
ark stuff, tim is a liar, etc etc
the usual
thx for helping w/that btw
real nice of you to take a guy by the hand and pull him away from his own humanity like that
teach him your ways
let him know that finding a bunch of ephemeral bullshit nobody cares about defs takes precedence over his own happiness or sense of self
but w/e you'd know all about trying to discard all that
right thomas
wink wink

WORTH THE WAIT OMFG

[bookofnope]

[As soon as he finishes reading the message, Beckett knows that something is wrong. Deeply, catastrophically wrong. He knows Tim can't be saying this, can't be knowing this. But the words are there in front of his eyes, and his vision feels briefly tilted sideways, like a blow to the head.

No one's called him Thomas in centuries. Anatole hadn't, and Lucita hadn't even known. Aristotle never called him that, and Aristotle called him "boy" and "my childe" and whatever other names made Beckett feel perpetually like a fledging but he'd taken with love nonetheless. The name doesn't even mean anything anymore. It's just, just -

Just like being reached into, under the skin, the muscles, the ribs - ]

Do you rea

Can

Can you read what you just wrote?

[That's all he can manage, and even that he needs to start and start again, because steadying his hand takes conscious effort. Once that comes through, though, the tablet is happy to pick up for him.]

Though perhaps I shouldn't be surprised that you no longer seem to care very much. It isn't as though you could do anything to help him, considering how your last attempt ended... that is, you could just give up and let our mutual friend in the mask take the wheel. Life would be so much easier for everyone. Granted, Jay might be a little upset, but maybe it is time he got the excuse he needed to get away from all this madness.

[maskintape]

what in GODDAMN HELL is your damage
yes I can read it
did I say something wrong
do you prefer tom? tommy? idk man work with me here
you know
it'd be funny if it weren't so sad tbh
you act like you know your shit and that brian's ~true calling~ is finding the ark
the answers
you pretend you understand
I've got news for you sherlock, you don't
but It understands YOU
It Sees you
It Knows you
It is Always Watching and when it whispers to me about these things do you know what it does
it *laughs.* like it genuinely thinks you're the funniest shit
looking for the truth about the beginning while denying the end even as it was happening right in your face
like
come on
lmao

[ Tim, of course, types nothing while this is spewed across Beckett's screen. He's too busy trying to keephis own hands from shaking, popping a pill and dry-swallowing it at he fights against a bout of distressed coughing. When he finally manages to form the rest of his response, none of it comes through. ]

don't you DARE say I don't give a damn
he sneaks around, he steals from me, he got jay killed
he wants me replaced with that masked FREAK
just like he hopped on in to fill the brain mulch left behind by the first friend I ever had
the first person to EVER GIVE A *FUCK*
and I still just want him to be safe and happy
fuck you and fuck him for thinking otherwise
say what you want I'm not leaving jay to deal w/this on his own
fuck
you

[bookofnope]

It's not possible. It can't be. Brian, Tim, even Jay, they'd all told him about the thing that haunts them, but it wasn't this. Beckett struggles to think, but it's like wading through ice water, a sensation he's intimately familiar with now. Is Tim really saying all these things, does he really know them, or is this just in his head somehow - just the logical next step of descent into madness?]

What did it tell you? What do you know about what I was searching for? How is it that

if brian knows why didnt he tell me?

[Even he can see the logic breaking down, but there's no logic here, anyway. It all may as well be meaningless. Everything else had been.

He can't type properly. He has to stop, put his head in his hands, remember that he needs to breathe these days.]

Some friend he's turning out to be. We'll have to have a little talk if I find him alive - I do so hope he has enough nerve endings left for me to make the most of. I'll be sure to give him your regards before I get down to business. You know, make sure he knows about how you got him in trouble with something beyond both your power and then failed to save him. Again.

HI MASKY |night 93 text; @zd (Only if you have time \o/)

[swatsflies]

Yo!
I don't know if you have your tablet on you.
Brian wanted me check if you guys found anything at the school.